Last night, I went to a friend’s house and drank quite a bit… ^^;
I had 5 jager bombs and a single shot of jager. Lots of calories! Soooooo that was my dinner last night! lol how horrible! xD Vodka wouldn’t have racked up the calories like that on me! Vodka’s my friend! lol not really… but still… fewer calories. =] I could have drank more, but I just chose not to. I would have been approaching the kind of drunk where I would have needed a babysitter… and that’s no fun because they probably wouldn’t let me do most of the stuff I want to at that point. Actually, I don’t think it really matters how many calories I had because I always get kinda hyper/silly when I drink so I move around a lot… haha I was playing Rock Band, but we couldn’t get the drums calibrated correctly so I stopped. (yes, it was the calibration, not my inebriation… lol) Then Pablo and I were playing basketball in the backyard… and at some point, I got bored of basketball and climbed onto the roof. lol Pablo and I just chilled up there. It was a really nice night outside… and my friend’s roof is awesome. It’s not made of tile like my roof… it’s made of some kind of metal so it doesn’t get all dirty like mine. Really great spot to chill. ^^
I was texting Email all night. I confessed to him that I had a crush on him! lol Can you believe it, tumblr??? I was the first one to say how I felt! How completely lame of me! Well… in my defense… I was kinda drunk…ish. lol Oh well! The cat’s out of the bag. But, you know, it wasn’t so bad, I suppose, because he told me that he liked me too! =DDDDD <33333 You know how amazing it feels?!?? How wonderfully, stupendously, incredibly jubilant I am to be saying this right now? He actually feels the same way about me!
Here I am, thinking I’ll never have feelings for anyone ever again because I hadn’t felt that way about someone in months. I was almost thinking that something was wrong with me! I thought that my last heartbreak had literally broken my heart… as in… it no longer functioned in a romantic sense. I mean… there were guys that showed interest in me… but I just didn’t feel that way about them. I don’t know if anyone really keeps up with these entries I write here, but if you do (whoever you are), I feel the need to remind you of past entries I wrote during those months. I felt hopeless. I felt broken. I felt as if I was walking through a dark tunnel of lovelessness (if that’s a word… and if it’s not, I just made it up) with no light at the end. Since it had been so long since I had felt that way about someone, I was honestly beginning to think that I should just give up on love. I remember some of you sending me messages of encouragement saying not to give up… and that love finds you when you least expect it. How right you were… all of you. Thank you for those messages, by the way. I feel like I’m emerging from that tunnel and all of you were calling out to me from the other side… telling me to keep going.
I don’t know if this is actually going to go somewhere… if he’ll be crazy enough to give me a chance… but right now all I’m thinking about is the fact that he actually feels the same way about me. I have to tell you, my dear tumblr, this feeling… this happiness that I was convinced I would never feel again… it’s beautiful. Even if things don’t work out with him and either one of us decides that maybe getting together isn’t what we want… I’m really glad this happened. <3